A new slut in town!!
Thursday February 28th 2008, 7:35 pm
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Jurnal now i know la.. after all these years… i finally know.. finally realised how he sees me thru his slanting eyes…i finally hear the truth how he thinks about me.. about who i am.. and what iam…
after all these years… after all the time… the feelings.. the love.. the affection… and this is how he thinks of me… JUST ANOTHER SLUT!!!… hhahahaha… thank you very much….so…. from all my heart.. i thank you.
of all person.. never expected it would come from him.. he is the last on my list to ever think about me as such… and somehow.. it really hurt me.. really hurt me.. the deepest wound ever in my heart..but he wont know that… cos he thinks i’m a slut… a slut with no feelings.. heartless slut… feelingless slut.. hahahaha… what else can i say… a slut words doesnt mean anything to anybody… a slut feeling meant nothing..all matters is what the slut do…did… that the most important one…
HEY WORLD.. LOOK.. A NEW SLUT IN TOWN…
damn!!!
Sakit
Wednesday February 27th 2008, 8:19 pm
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Jurnal dari mlm td Milia tak sihat..tak tau la .. mungkin salah makan.. i dont know la.. dok muntah2.. and perut memulas.. rasa cam nak angkut bantal..tilam… selimut.. SEMUA nyer.. masuk toilet…
dah tak ada apa yg boleh kuar… makanan dah kosong dlm perut… yg kuar.. air… air limau.. air nescafe… air teh o.. sumer kuar…. dan Milia pun.. makin melepek….
rasa cam nak blk umah n tido jer….
aries 28th February 2008
Wednesday February 27th 2008, 7:44 pm
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The Bottom Line
Issues need clarity, not cuteness today. Be frank and open about what you’re saying.
In Detail
A lot of information needs to be communicated in a very small amount
of time today, so you don’t have time to beat around the bush or be
vague. Your new name is Frank — in that you need to be frank and open
in everything you say and write today. Vague hints dropped here and
there are not going to get picked up. You need to be direct, clear, and
even in some cases shockingly straightforward in order to move anything
forward at all. Issues need clarity, so bring it.
Aries 22nd February 2008
Thursday February 21st 2008, 10:22 pm
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The Bottom Line
If you can be of service to someone today, you will make yourself feel valuable.
In Detail
Feeling useful will suddenly be extremely important to you — right
now, you are feeling that it doesn’t really matter whether or not you
get what you want today when you see so many others who don’t have
anything at all. If you can be of service to someone (anyone) today,
you will make yourself feel valuable, like you are able to do just
about anything. You are a positive force in people’s lives — even the
people who don’t know you very well just yet.
So what if I’m fat???
Thursday February 21st 2008, 10:00 pm
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Jurnal A Clipped of my conversation with a friend whom I shall not name…
"Friend : diri cam per lakkkk
Friend : hehehehehehe
Me : diri sy… mcm
diri sy la..
Me : insya`Allah cam
org
Friend : cam…..gaj….
Me : amboi jari..
Me : emm…
Me : tak per la..
Me :
Alhamdulillah…
Me : tanda sy byk
duit nak bg diri sy makan..
Friend : yer laaaaaaaaaa
Friend : marah ler 2222
Me: tak yah kawanla dgn org cam gajah ni kan
Me: pegi ler cari yg slim melim tu
Friend : sy x byk duit
Friend : awk byk duitttt
Friend : eeeellllllllleeeeeeeeeeeeee
Friend : merajuk la 2
Me : tak merajuk… trasa ati je
Friend:sowieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Me : dah la..tiada maaf dah bg mu
Me : bkn skali…
Me : dah berkali2..
Me : hina sgt ek org yg bdn besar ni?
Friend : laaaaaaaaaa
Me : org yg badan
besar ni tak ada ati ek?
Me : tak ada
perassan ek?
Me : boleh di hina2?
Me : boleh di ejek
mcm tu?
Friend : ape laaa awk niii
Friend : org minta maaf ni
Friend : tak laaaa
Friend : ok laaaa
Friend : sy salahhhh
Me : kalu tu niat awak berkawan dgn sy…
Friend :terlebih lak
syyy
Me: tak yah berkawan la..kalu semata2 nak menghina sy
Me: nak mencaci sy
Me : salam!
Friend : maafff yek
Friend : x laaaa
Friend : kwn ikhlas laaa wak
Friend : x de maksud lainnn
Friend : maaf laaaa
Friend : janji x buat lg
Friend : awkkkkkkkkkkk
Friend : laaaaaaaaaaaaa
Me : dha la awak..
Me : tak yahkawan dgn sy
Friend: sy minta maaf niiiii
Me : sy tak suka di hina..di caci mcm ni
Me : awak p la cari yg setaraf dgn awak
Me : yg slim melim "
——
buruk sungguh ek orang yg badan besar ni di mata orang… hina sgt ek?.. buruk sgt sampai kami di jadikan bahan lawak?.. bahan cacian?.. bahan hinaan?? is that how u see us?
pernah terpikir tak yg kami ni ada hati dan prasaan?..
Cinta…
Tuesday February 19th 2008, 4:34 pm
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Jurnal Ke gurun engkau ikut
ke kutub engkau turut
bersama sehidup semati
demikian kau ucapkan janji
menangis kita berdua
tertawa bersama
tapi kini apa yg terjadi
segalanya kau tak peduli lagi
dan yang lebih menghancurkan kalbu
kau bercumbu di depanku
* ya Tuhan tunjukkanlah
dosa dan salahku
mudahnya dia buat janji
semudah dia ingkari janji
alangkah kejamnya cinta
alangkah pedihnya
** kejam oh kejam
pedih oh pedih
cinta oh cinta
Ketulusan…
Sunday February 17th 2008, 6:52 pm
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Jurnal Cintaku tak berdusta
tak mengenal ingkar
tak kenal nestapa
Cintaku hanya indah
hanya bahagia
untuk selamanya
Apa yang kurasakan ini
persembahan untuk dirimu
kaudengarkan kasihku
Mencintaimu
tak mengenal waktu
tak mengenal puitis
hanya tulusnya hati
Mencintaimu
tak mengenal ragu
keyakinan hatiku
hanya untuk dirimu
selalu
Cintaku tak berdusta
tak mengenal ingkar
tak kenal nestapa
Tak ada seribu janji
hanya bahagia utk selamanya
apa yang kurasakan ini
persembahan untuk dirimu
kaudengarkan kasihku
——
for someone special to my heart…
Aries 18th February 2008
Sunday February 17th 2008, 4:36 pm
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The Bottom Line
The heat is on in one of your close relationships — tempers are likely to flare.
In Detail
The heat is getting turned up a lot higher in one of your personal
relationships — but unfortunately, it might not be in a good way. Look
for little annoyances to suddenly turn into full-fledged fights. To
counter this, you should avoid those people who often push your
buttons. Also, if you were thinking about visiting a friend who’s been
away for a while, keep in mind that they will probably monopolize the
conversation. You’ll do a lot of listening, and not a lot of talking.
They came back!!!
Friday February 15th 2008, 4:42 pm
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Jurnal yes… yes… yes… semalam milia baru bagitau betapa rindunya milia pada kucing2 milia yg hilang… dan semalam tu jugak petangnya.. kucing2 milia balik ke rumah!!.. tapi tanpa Dino!!..
mula2 balik keje npk pele… tapi dia tak nak di dekati.. pangey dia menyahut.. tapi tak boleh nak dpt tangkap…umpan dengan biskut.. akhirnya milia dpt tangkap jugak dia…
then malam tu … masa milia di dapur, tergerak untuk mengintai kucing2 milia yg lain tu.. skali nampak aksi dia orang yang agak mencurigakan… milia kuar rumah.. bukak2 pintu.. chibo tunggu milia di depan pintu.. dgn senang jer milia dapat tangkap dia!!! masa ni terus taruk dalam rumag kucing.. bagi makan and minum.. memang kebulur la dia orang.. tak mkn agak nyer…
dalam membelek pele dan cibo… milia terdengar suara kucing… rasa macam kenal… so milia dengar betui2… dan milia cam tu suara Gina!!!.. suka nyer hati milia..tak terkata… milia pangey nama dia… dia menyahut… kembang hati milia.. selepas puas memujuk gina.. akhirnya gina datang kat milia… terus bawak masuk dalam dan bagi dia makan. lapar sungguh dia.. berulang2 dia makan…
milia terus duduk di luar dan memanggil nama DIno.. berharap sangat yang Dino akan jumpa rumah..dan pulang…
dan subuh pagi ni… anjing menyerang lagi rumah kucing milia!!!…adus!!!…pukul 5 pagi… kelam kabut milia bangun dan cuba mengejar anjing tu…tapi mana larat daaaaaa……
DAN.. pele hilang semula!!!..aisehmen…
Aries 16th February 2008
Friday February 15th 2008, 4:12 pm
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The Bottom Line
You and a family member aren’t getting along, but they still love and respect you.
In Detail
Just because you and a certain family member haven’t been getting
along recently doesn’t mean that they aren’t wishing you the best. Two
people can still love each other dearly when they don’t see things the
same way. Learn to live with the differences you have with people you
care about, and you will have a lot more joy in your life than you will
if you shut out anyone who challenges your beliefs. This is the start
of a whole new level to your relationship, and it will be educational
for both of you.
I Miss Them..
Thursday February 14th 2008, 6:15 pm
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Jurnal dah lebih seminggu… dah nak masuk 10 ari… tapi milia masih merindui dia orang…
milia rindu pada Gina… tido dgn gina… pelok dia.. main dgn dia…time milia bersihkan tinger dia.. heheheh….
milia rindu dgr sahutan Dino setiap kali milia pangey nama dia… milia rindu tengok dia memanjangkan badannya untuk mencapai jari milia…
milia rindu menggaru leher dan perut Pele…. tengok dia kegelian kesedapan… tengok dia menyondol Dino…
milia rindu pada kemanjaan Czar… rindu nak garu perut dia… tengok dia menyondol Dino… tengok gaya dia ngelak dari serangan Drake
milia rindu pada pandangan dan renungan CHibo… mata dia juling… so kalu muka dia pandang milia.. muka dia tomet sgt!!.. comel!!!!..
Milia rindu semua …..
Aries 15th February 2008
Thursday February 14th 2008, 6:10 pm
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The Bottom Line
The pace of your life has been far too fast for far too long. You must rest today.
In Detail
The journey you have been on has been quite a challenging one, so
you’ll breathe a sigh of relief today when you come across a person who
offers you a chance to rest your weary feet for a while. The pace of
your life has been far too fast for far too long, and they have an
invitation you should not pass up. You’ll be much happier when you can
see things while you’re standing still — not when they’re whizzing by
as you run at a million miles an hour.
Aries 13th February 2008
Tuesday February 12th 2008, 4:23 pm
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The Bottom Line
There will be a pause in the action today — it will help you learn some patience.
In Detail
There will be a pause in the action today — you have a lot of
momentum going on in various projects right now, but it’s time for
patience, not for progress. Slowing down will give you a chance to kick
off your shoes, sit down and get comfortable. Work on learning how to
accept the fact that you can’t always have things happen as quickly as
you think you want them to. The universe has a different speed in mind
for you, and it’s liberating to just go with it.
A Recipe For Friendship
Tuesday February 12th 2008, 4:22 pm
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Jurnal Fold two hands together
And express a dash of sorrow
Marinate it overnight
And work on it tomorrow
Chop one grudge in tiny pieces
Add several cups of love
Dredge with a large sized smile
Mix with the ingredients above
Dissolve the hate within you
By doing a good deed
Cut in and help your friend
If he should be in need
Stir in laughter, love, and kindness
From the heart it has to come
Toss with genuine forgiveness
And give your neighbor some
The amount of people served
Will depend on you
It can serve the whole wide world
If you really want it to
Really be careful when you cook and serve it some people may not like the taste,
if u like the taste send u friends whom u care..
A Wonderful Friend is..
Tuesday February 12th 2008, 4:21 pm
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Believes you can do it.
Calls just to say Hi.
Does not give up on you.
Envisions all of you.
Explains things you do not know.
Gives you wonderful times.
Helps without being asked.
Invites you over.
Joins in your problems.
Keeps you in there heart.
Loves you in many ways.
Makes a difference in your life.
Never judges.
Offers support.
Picks you up when you are down.
Quiets your fear.
Raises your spirits.
Says all the right things.
Talks a lot.
Understands you.
Values you.
Walks with you.
Yells when you won’t listen.
Zaps you back to reality.
Where to start??
Monday February 11th 2008, 6:39 pm
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Jurnal ok… a lot of things happened to me this last few days…and it is driving me up the walls.. left me feeling uneasy all the time.. my heart beats faster than ever!!!… where to begin…
6th February…
it’s almost 5am in the cold wednesday morning… where I just couldnt sleep. The dogs are barking too loud.. as if they are just near my room… then.. I looked out from the window to see if there are any stray dogs near my house.. like the nite before.. I saw none… so i went back to bed.. but the dos’ barking are getting louder and louder… THEN suddenly i heard cats screeching… I jumped out of my bed.. and ran downstairs as fast as i could… opened the front door and grill.. and i saw $ BLODDY BASTARD dogs surrounding my cats’ cage..i was so furious… i tried to reach what ever i can to throw at those dogs.. unfortunately I did not find any.. and by that time the dogs are far away. One of the doors is opened.. and all the cats inside room 1 is all gone!!.. including my baby girl Gina, my big boy Dino, my darling Pele and my sweet Chibo.. and the worst is yet to come… I found MY HANDSOME CZAR lying on the ground!!.. DEAD!! with blood all over his body!! with bite marks all over his body…. and on the ground.. blood were everywhere… their fur were flying around… i was numbed!… i just couldnt think straight… i was devastated!.. frustrated…sad!…
i went to see the other cats if they are ok… blood are everywhere as well.. all look so frightened!.. Drey has blood on hid hands… so i took him… and he was bitten by the dogs!! he lost all his fingers… and i just couldnt stop crying…my tears are running down my cheeks like river flowing…
i gave bath to all my cats at 5.30 in the morning… wash their cage.. and put some biscuits in their plate. They just look at me with their sad eyes… and i just couldnt look back at them…
8.30 am.. i took Drey to the see a vet in Rawang. The vet said.. I must look after 
the wound closely… if not the wound will get infected.. and his hands must be amputated. I was again numbed!. I looked the other way when the vet cleaned his wounds.. and cut off some bones from his hands.Gave him some antibiotics shot. And gave me some instructions on how to clean the wounds, and give me some antibiotics for Drey.
7th February…
The dogs attacked again!!!.. but this time they only manage at the front gate. I just couldnt sleep.. everytime i hear dogs barking.. i ran down… the whole nite.. i lay awake…
I was reluctant to go back to Klang that CNY as i fear for cats well being. But abah called and suggested that the cats to be locked inside the house. And I agreed.So on CNY, i took both Drey and Bront back to Klang. Packed their food, medicine and milk. Not to forget their Pantene Anti-dandruff!
I put extra wires on the front gate.
11th February…
I was back home after the 5 days break for CNY.. I decided to put back all my cats in the cage as I have put xtra wires on the front gate…
That nite.. i went to visit Pcik ’s family with Mami Meera. at about 11, I received a call from Kak Rozie ( my neighbour ) saying that the dogs are attacking my ctas again. GOD!!!… i drove as fast as I could back to my place along woth Mami Meera, Pcik n Mcik. When we arrived, we saw 4 dogs, the same dogs attacked last time, was attacking my cats again!!!.. DAMN!!!!… My heart was beating so fast as if it was skipping 3 beats at a time.. we managed to drove the dogs away!. We saw that this time the dogs came from my neighbour’s house (rite). The house is empty. Pcik put some woods to block the area, to stop the dogs from coming again from that same way. My cats was shaken… shits are everywhere.. I took all of them and put them in the house!
And this morning.. I called AGAIN Majlis Daerah Hulu Selangor, to report about the strays… and they keep on passing me to this one other number. And they have asked me to call this guy.. I called him 10 times before he actually pick up the phone!. And i was so furiuos as he is not able to come today to catch all the strays. DAMN!!!!!!!!!
this is Czar…
this is Dino
this is Chibo
this is Gina..
Most Unromantic Valentine’s Rhymes
Monday February 11th 2008, 6:16 pm
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Jurnal These are entries to a competition asking for a rhyme with the most romantic first line but least romantic second line:
* Love may be beautiful, love may be bliss
But I only slept with you, because I was pissed
* I thought that I could love no other
Until, that is, I met your brother
* Roses are red, violets are blue, sugar is sweet, and so are you.
But the roses are wilting, the violets are dead, the sugar bowl’s empty and so is your head.
* Of loving beauty you float with grace
If only you could hide your face
* Kind, intelligent, loving and hot
This describes everything you are not
* I want to feel your sweet embrace
But don’t take that paper bag off of your face
* I love your smile, your face, and your eyes
Damn, I’m good at telling lies!
* My darling, my lover, my beautiful wife
Marrying you screwed up my life
* I see your face when I am dreaming
That’s why I always wake up screaming
* My feelings for you no words can tell
Except for maybe "go to hell"
* What inspired this amorous rhyme?
Two parts vodka, one part lime!
Aries 12th February 2008
Monday February 11th 2008, 6:10 pm
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The Bottom Line
A confusing yet charming person will come into your life today and energize you!
In Detail
A confusing yet charming person will come into your life today, and
they will have lots of sweet talk for you. However, their flattery
could cause you to ask questions instead of blush. This is a good sign
– it means they can offer you more than just an ego boost. So engage
with them and find out who they really are and what they are about –
don’t just stick with talking about the weather. The two of you have
something rare in common.
Begining of your name??
Sunday February 10th 2008, 10:10 pm
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Baik
hati dan rapi dalam berpakaian.. Mereka suka menghulurkan tangan
menolong orang lain tanpa memikirkan balasan. Kelemahannya, mudah
bersedih hati dan kurang percaya diri.
——
E
Pandai
dan penuh pertimbangan dalam menjalankan tanggung jawab. Sikapnya
periang bila hatinya senang, tetapi suka berdiam diri apabila hatinya
gundah dan boleh membuatkan hati orang lain terluka.
Month of LOVE!!!
Sunday February 10th 2008, 7:40 pm
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Jurnal To My Friends Who Are …….SINGLE 
Love is like a butterfly.
The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, It will come to you when you least expect it.Love can make you happy but often it hurts, but love is only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best.
To My Friends Who Are…..NOT SO SINGLE 
Love isn’t about becoming somebody else’s "perfect person"It’s about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.
To My Friends Who
Are……PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE 
Never say "I love you" if you don’t care. Never talk about feelings if they aren’t there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look in the eye when all you do is lie.The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl:Is to let her fall in love when he doesn’t intend to catch her fall and it works both ways.
To My Friends Who Are …… ENGAGED 
The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together But how good you are for each other.
To My Friends Who Are ……. MARRIED 
Love is not about "it’s your fault", but "I’m sorry." Not "where are you", but "I’m right here" Not "how could you", but "I understand" Not "I wish you were", but "I’m thankful you are"
To My Friends Who Are……HEARTBROKEN 
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks, But to learn from them.
To My Friends Who Are ……NAIVE 
How to be in love: Be consistent but not too persistent, Share and never be unfair,
Understand and try not to demand, And get hurt but never keep the pain
To My Friends Who Are…….POSSESSIVE 
It breaks your heart to see the one you love. Happy with someone else But it’s more painful to know that the one you love. Is unhappy with you.
To My Friends Who Are….AFRAID TOCONFESS 
Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most: When the person you love has no idea
how you feel about him/her
To My Friends Who Are ………..
STILL HOLDING ON 
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be, and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn’t worth it. If that person doesn’t worth it now, it’s not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now.
TO ALL MY FRIENDS . …… 
My wish for you is a man/woman whose love is: honest, strong, mature, never-changing, protective, encouraging,rewarding and unselfish.
ENJOY THIS MONTH OF LOVE
